I have a confession to make; I might as well just lay it all out there. I have blogger-envy. It's an embarrassing thing to admit, but it's the truth.
I love reading other people's blogs. I often lose track of time as I flit from one blog to another, relishing the insights, humor and advice that I find inhabiting the words of so many wonderful bloggers. I love it! And I hate it!
When I read a beautifully written post that encourages and inspires me I think "What? Why didn't I write that?" Or when I laugh at the humorous experiences of some hilarious blogger I wonder, "How come I didn't come up with that?" It's painful. It truly is.
The truth is, I am an accidental blogger. I never planned on writing a blog. But one Sunday night in November of 2008, my daughter happened to be home. She had recently started blogging and thought that I should give it a try. So while I watched with amazement and trepidation, she set up "In The Midst" and immediately handed over the keyboard to me. I loved it! And I hated it!
It's a joy to have a place to deposit the countless thoughts that swirl around in my head on a regular basis. There is such satisfaction in pulling together ideas in a way that can be shared with others. It's a pleasure, pure and simple. I love that!
But then there are other times, when nothing comes. Zero. Zip. Not a single thing. I struggle to think of something, anything to write. And I hate that!
That's when I usually hit the other blogs. And that's when the envy begins. So there you have it. Blogger-envy.
I hope that all of you wonderful bloggers recognize your role in this. If you weren't such great writers, I wouldn't have this problem. But the bottom line is this: I love you! And I hate you...just a little!